What Secondary Infertility Taught Rebecca St. James About God

Christian artist Rebecca St. James recently reflected on the heartbreak of secondary infertility and miscarriage, describing years of uncertainty as a “winter season” that ultimately grew her trust in God, strengthened her marriage, and deepened her gratitude for her family. “I struggled with secondary infertility after my first and so we were trying for a couple years and that was really challenging,” said St. James in an Aug. 20 video from Focus on the Family. “I miscarried a couple times. And I remember just being really heartbroken.” Secondary infertility is when a couple struggles to have a child after the mother previously gave birth without the aid of fertility treatments. “You don’t know how long that season of uncertainty is going to be. Will I ever get pregnant again?” St. James said. “Or, you know, for somebody that’s miscarrying and they haven’t had children, I think that the uncertainty is even greater. It’s like, ‘Will I ever get pregnant?’ And the pain and the grief of that is just really, really heavy.” Rebecca St. James Has a ‘Tremendous Gratefulness’ Rebecca St. James is a Grammy and Dove Award-winning contemporary Christian music singer, songwriter, author, speaker, and actor. She and her husband, Cubbie Fink, a founding member of Foster the People, released a memoir in 2025 titled, “Lasting Ever: Faith, Music, Family, and Being Found by True Love.” In it, the couple shared about their struggles with secondary infertility. St. James is the older sister of Joel Smallbone and Luke Smallbone of for KING + COUNTRY. She appeared in the 2024 film “Unsung Hero,” a biopic about their family. In the Aug. 20 video, St. James described the grief she experienced struggling with secondary infertility and what God taught her through that journey. “It was always just my dream to be a mom,” she said, explaining that as the oldest of seven children she was like a second mom to her younger siblings. St. James had a “happy childhood” with “lots of joy” and observed that her own mother was “really fulfilled as a mom.” Rebecca St. James reflected on the heartbreak of secondary infertility, explaining how the ordeal ultimately grew her trust in God.Click to PostHowever, it took St. James longer to experience motherhood than she hoped. She got married at age 33 and had her first daughter at age 36. But after that, she was unable to get pregnant for a while and experienced some miscarriages.